The Battle in My Mind

Papa,  As I reminisce on our many years together I can't help but smile. I have no doubt in my mind that you're watching over us now. I know you think I'm a mess but there's a few things that I must reassure you. I know you like pictures so I'll make sure I send pictures of COLE to heaven on BOTH phones... I can already hear you telling me you don't know how to view the picture. Lol, just click the home button, camera, and view photos. Don't worry, I'll keep you updated on Wheel of Fortune, the Spurs or "Spuuus" as you call them and them Cowboys.  If I even get an idea that school is too much for me I'll remind myself of how proud you were of me and how many times you said "you are smaaaart " lol. "That guh is a WIZZZ".   Chuuuuck, (you know I only called you that when I had to monitor your sweet intake) I quickly learned that I had to cut you a piece of pie or cake because I realized when I told you you could have a lit

About a month to date, give or take an hour, I am in a similar situation where I am awaken by the startling reality of death. To many, you may not understand what this feels like, others may think it's funny and joke about it, but as for me this has been very challenging . Anyone who knows me knows that my family means the world to me.  This includes my four legged child  Rex. This morning around 3 o'clock I had the harsh reality of viewing his lifeless body. You never know how much a pet can impact your life . Prior to getting Rex on my 11th birthday, I couldn't understand how people let their dogs live in their house. Once I was introduced to Rex, I couldn't understand how individuals let their dogs live outside. Rex was no ordinary dog. He communicated without saying words, he was very protective, showed unconditional love, had a way of making you feel guilty about eating your own food, etc. He was dressed to impress for any occasion and had pairs of shoes to match.