The Battle in My Mind

This time it’s personal… This year, as I turn 37, I feel something shifting deep within me. It’s more than another birthday; it’s a spiritual milestone. The number 37 carries profound meaning. In biblical symbolism, it represents completion and perfection intertwined with purpose. It quietly whispers,  “ It’s time to reap .”  Not just the physical blessings, but the harvest that comes after seasons of endurance, lessons, tears, and faith. For years, I’ve been sowing seeds, some in pain, some in prayer, and some in patience. I’ve learned that growth isn’t always loud or visible. Sometimes, it’s what happens in silence, in the spaces where you choose peace instead of proving a point, or boundaries instead of burnout. Turning 37 feels like standing at the edge of a new chapter where God is saying,  “Now, watch what I can do with all you’ve been through.” This year will be  personal . It’s not about proving anything to anyone; it’s about walking in everything God has pro...

Got your hopes up for something? Got let down? Well YOU, my friend, are not alone... It sucks like a vacuum doesn't it ?... The anxious anticipation of the plan strikes several emotions and one cannot wait for the plan to fall into its prospective place... Just to your demise, it's an epic fail: someone doesn't show up, no one answers the phone, etc. The plan is ruined...  Often times we expect what we would be willing to do for others... This is one of the quickest ways to get let down. Everyone doesn't think like you, therefore expecting them to react or respond as you would is a failure from the mere thought.   In retrospect of my many disappointments I've developed my own recipe to produce a delicious amount of happiness... Preheat your self expectations of how you will carry yourself, what you want out of life, how you will treat people, and whom you want to grow to be. Mix 100% expectations on God to do just what He said he would do.  Trust that He has a pur...