The Battle in My Mind

There are seasons in life where everything feels still—quiet, even painfully so. It can feel like nothing is happening, like dreams are fading, and prayers are being ignored. But don’t confuse silence with absence. Don’t mistake stillness for stagnation. You are not buried… you are planted. In the soil, a seed looks lifeless. It is hidden from view, covered by darkness, and disconnected from the light it once knew. But beneath that surface, a transformation is happening. Slowly. Quietly. With purpose. The Silent Test Ever notice how the teacher is quiet during the test? That silence isn’t punishment, it’s an invitation to apply what you’ve already learned. In our spiritual and emotional lives, there are “test seasons” where we don’t feel divine direction, where clarity doesn’t come easily, and where reassurance feels distant. But this silence doesn’t mean you’re alone. It’s part of your growth. It’s where you learn to reflect, not react… and then determine whether a response is even ne...

  Taking time to reflect has been incredibly valuable. Being in a healthy relationship has filled me with hope and excitement for what’s ahead. It’s prompted me to pause and gather my thoughts here’s what’s been on my heart… Yesterday, I met the truth  and she was soft, but unrelenting. She said, “No… you’re not quite ready for marriage again.” And I didn’t flinch. Because she wasn’t judging  she was freeing me. Freeing me to admit what I need, without apology. To stand on things I’ve spoken out loud and things I have whispered in private. I need to feel safe enough… to feel. To break without being broken. To cry and not be labeled “too much.” To speak and not be muted by ego or pride. I need space  space to be human, to be messy, to heal the parts of me no one ever saw bleeding. I need to heal the wounds I’ve carried, the ones I tucked behind strength and silence, the ones I dressed in “I’m fine” so no one would worry. I need to feel loved  not tolerated, not m...

In a world that never stops talking filled with constant notifications, overlapping conversations, and the hum of daily chaos,  silence  is a rare and often misunderstood experience. It can feel like a sanctuary. Or it can echo like an empty room that reminds you of everything left unsaid. But what is silence, really? Silence is the absence of noise, but it is never truly empty. It’s the pause between heartbeats, the space between words, the stillness that invites us to look inward. It can offer peace or provoke pain. It can be a place of rest or a weapon of withdrawal. Silence, in its purest form, is neutral but its impact is entirely personal. The Healing Side of Silence There is a kind of silence that nourishes. The kind that wraps around you like a warm blanket after a long day. This silence doesn’t come to punish, it comes to help you  hear . Mental Clarity and Self-Reflection In the quiet, thoughts rise to the surface, unfiltered, unforced. There’s space to reflect,...