The Battle in My Mind

Every encounter in life can promote growth. This includes even those unfortunate circumstances. If you analyze  every capacity of your life you will understand the dimension to which each facet can contribute to your development . Sports have always been a huge factor in my life as I enjoy competition. The indescribable rush that occurs as you mentally prepare and focus  is absolutely necessary to give your best effort. Aha....I've already given two life lessons to learn from it...  Control your rush and  anxieties and you can focus more appropriately. Focusing plays such a major role in life because there are many distractions available to guide one off course. Being from the south, there are only a few common  sports that I did not seriously compete in during school. Those include soccer, golf, and swimming. However, volleyball, basketball, track, tennis, softball, cheerleading, and  powerlifting were all a part of my sporting resume'.  Although t...

Have you ever thought about why you were put on this earth? Like what exactly you were supposed to carry out before your time is over on this side? Are your talents and gifts connected to that purpose? Do you have multiple purposes? I cannot tell you exactly what your purpose in life is but I can help you figure it out by asking you what bothers you and doesn't usually phase people around you? No, no , no I am not talking about obnoxious smacking, people sliding their feet on the ground or loud breathing. I mean a serious issue in the world that bothers you and you desire to fix. Your purpose is connected to that. It takes everyone to run this world so it's important that you play your part. You were created with a purpose for a purpose. "As you mature so will it, you just have to find IT"! Sensai #purpose #life #talents #gifts #blog

Inspired by Dr. Charles Stanley Making decisions in our life: direction without doubt  Psalm 25:12 CLEAR THE PATHWAY- clear your heart of any known sin or disobedience whether its an attitude or action: get rid of it  Clean heart =clear mind Sin is to the mind what fog does to the brain : fog covers highway and you can't see 20 feet in front of you. Look at your life and ask "what is it in my life that doesn't fit who I am that will hinder me from God giving me clear direction. " 1. Deal with sin 2. Bring your desires to a point of neutrality . Acknowledge what you want but if that's not what God wants You'll do what he says .  Submit your will and let him bring you to a point of being neutrality . You may not like it but Be willing to do his will. "Above everything else, Lord, I want what you want"  EXERCISE PATIENCE- when you have a certain urge to make a decision , back off. ask "does this look , sound like God? Does this ...

I love God. I am not perfect. But I am trying. I am wise beyond years, so I’ve been told. I don’t act like people my age. I will never be satisfied with my body. I am not rich in money, but rich in love. I sometimes say things I wish I wouldn’t have. I def think my mind needs to slow down. I am not perfect. But I am trying. I don’t really care for recognition. My feet are small. Ive accomplished a lot but feel like I should've accomplished more. I’m coming out of my comfort zone. No kids. I sometimes want people to get what they deserve [ although I shouldn’t]. I only want to be ME. I am not perfect. But I am trying. I wish I could sing well [don’t want to be a singer tho]. I need to work on my patience (major flaw). I am very random and when something comes to mind I have to say it or I'll forget it. I love music. I do a lot behind the scenes, no pats on the back needed. Some little things aggravate me. Smacking. Sloppy eaters. Et...

Forgiveness Dealing with forgiveness may be one of the most difficult challenges in life one can experience. It seems absolutely illogical to forgive someone who has stabbed you in the back, deceived you, hurt your family member, etc. "Turn the other cheek" you say. Yea it's biblical but not the easiest thing to do. Because I have experienced many encounters of dealing with forgiveness, allow me to speak from my own truth. It's completely human for you to want to seek revenge or wish evil on someone but I have learned revenge is a revolving door, therefore seeking revenge is inflicting self harm in a way. You see, thinking about ways to seek revenge drains a lot of your energy and is completely pointless. We say "but how is it fair for someone to harm me and I am just supposed to let it go". That doesn't make sense. Well let's get this straight. Life is not fair. Things will not always make sense. Guess what favor isn't fair either. But it i...

My dearly beloved parents, I fracture my mind trying to find ways to ever repay y'all for everything you've been to me and done for me. Because I have yet to be clever or creative enough to come up with a process of reciprocation it stresses me out. I know you all don't expect anything materialistic but even then I don't know what I could purchase that would show my appreciation. I realize I will be forever indebted to y'all. All of the life's lessons you taught me, encouragement, support and even discipline has instilled morals and values in me that I wouldn't have otherwise. Because all the money in the world could never repay you I decided to show you how much you mean to me via written expression.  Daddy, Remember the broken shoulder after you told me not to run back and forth across the street going to the trampoline when I was in 8th grade? Or the whooping after I moved the car up on Shreck when you went in the back yard and told me not to? Wh...

The battle in my mind.... I want to do wrong but good is always present . You don't understand the conviction and anointing I'm facing. See as bad as I desire certain things and as rewarding as they seem in the moment, I just can't seem to forget about how much I will lose if I am not disciplined. I'm aware that not too many people know what this feels like but let me attempt to paint my words metaphorically so you can get a glimpse of my reality. In psychological terminology, picture your father having reinforcement for listening to his commands and with each correct movement he is anxiously anticipating opening his hands to deliver what's already ordained for you. However refusal to use the correct prompt or pull the correct lever may result in getting shocked and eventually having to start back over.           See I am aware that God is a forgiving God but I am not willing to continue restarting for my conscious decisions. I know I make mistakes but I don't...