The Battle in My Mind

There are seasons in life where everything feels still—quiet, even painfully so. It can feel like nothing is happening, like dreams are fading, and prayers are being ignored. But don’t confuse silence with absence. Don’t mistake stillness for stagnation. You are not buried… you are planted. In the soil, a seed looks lifeless. It is hidden from view, covered by darkness, and disconnected from the light it once knew. But beneath that surface, a transformation is happening. Slowly. Quietly. With purpose. The Silent Test Ever notice how the teacher is quiet during the test? That silence isn’t punishment, it’s an invitation to apply what you’ve already learned. In our spiritual and emotional lives, there are “test seasons” where we don’t feel divine direction, where clarity doesn’t come easily, and where reassurance feels distant. But this silence doesn’t mean you’re alone. It’s part of your growth. It’s where you learn to reflect, not react… and then determine whether a response is even ne...

Mighty man of valor,   I anxiously, yet patiently anticipate your arrival in my life. My envision for us supersedes my conscious ability to articulate with accurate precision. As I await and prepare for our connection, there are some things I would like you to know...  Timing is everything.... Our first level of commitment is to God. We owe him a return on his investment . Then our commitment to each other. Our connectivity will be a phenomenal asset to our commitment.  Future husband, I want you to thoroughly comprehend the immense difficulty of watching everyone else appear to be happily in love, meanwhile I constantly get approached by .... Well let's just say, "developing" men. (Yeah, developing men... That was a nice way to put it.) perhaps "poor timing " or "premature males ". Who knows... My conscious decision at age 14 to make better and intentional choices of being a lady with attempts to keep my sanctuary essential were so th...