The Battle in My Mind

This morning, I was reading Genesis 43 during a Bible study, and one detail stopped me in my tracks. Joseph had his brothers seated at his table, but when the food was served, Benjamin's portion was different. Scripture says, "When portions were served to them from Joseph's table, Benjamin's portion was five times as much as anyone else's" (Genesis 43:34). Benjamin's plate was piled high, not because he earned it, worked harder for it, or was somehow more talented than his brothers. His plate was piled high because of his bloodline. Benjamin shared the same mother as Joseph. There was a unique closeness in their relationship and an undeniable connection in their lineage that resulted in favor at the table. His portion was not determined by his performance; it was connected to who he belonged to. As I sat with that scripture, I felt the Lord speak something to my spirit: "If Benjamin's plate was piled high because of his connection to Joseph, why ...

  In today’s world, where marriages face constant pressures from external and spiritual forces, one truth stands unshaken:  a woman is greatly blessed when her husband takes his rightful role as a spiritual covering in their relationship and family.  This is not about domination or control, but about divine order, protection, and partnership as God designed it. God’s Design for Spiritual Covering From the very beginning, God established order in relationships: “But I want you to realize that the head of every man is Christ, and the head of the woman is man, and the head of Christ is God.”  –  1 Corinthians 11:3 This scripture shows divine alignment. Just as Christ submits to the Father, and man submits to Christ, the woman is covered by the man. It is not about superiority, it is about protection, structure, and spiritual flow. When a husband stands as the priest of his home, he becomes the shield that intercepts attacks aimed at his wife and children. Without t...

Death is never an easy situation for me to overcome. My mind begins  hyperextending from the myriad emotions of denial, numbness, empathy, confusion, surprisingly gratefulness, and the list continues. This past encounter with the death of my grandfather taught me so much about myself and my family. You never know what you take for granted until it is no longer available to you. I never valued voicemails so much until that was the only opportunity I had to listen to a loved one's voice. I never valued watching someone inhale and exhale until I watched as breath exited my grandfather's lifeless body for the final time. This experience has been bitter sweet. I will miss my grandfather tremendously, but I am aware that he is no longer in pain and is cancer free. On the contrary,  I'm so grateful for my family and the spiritual strength that I have gained through this process. I have never felt God's presence so much in my lifetime. He is truly a comforter and peace in the...

Mighty man of valor,   I anxiously, yet patiently anticipate your arrival in my life. My envision for us supersedes my conscious ability to articulate with accurate precision. As I await and prepare for our connection, there are some things I would like you to know...  Timing is everything.... Our first level of commitment is to God. We owe him a return on his investment . Then our commitment to each other. Our connectivity will be a phenomenal asset to our commitment.  Future husband, I want you to thoroughly comprehend the immense difficulty of watching everyone else appear to be happily in love, meanwhile I constantly get approached by .... Well let's just say, "developing" men. (Yeah, developing men... That was a nice way to put it.) perhaps "poor timing " or "premature males ". Who knows... My conscious decision at age 14 to make better and intentional choices of being a lady with attempts to keep my sanctuary essential were so th...