The Battle in My Mind

As I watched Pastor Sarah Jakes Roberts’ sermon from this weekend, the word PROCESS resonated in my spirit. I started a deep dive in all the various facets the word PROCESS is used and how important and relevant each version is in particular for me! Here’s what came to mind…. The Beauty of the Process : God, My Process or God, when I sit and bask in Your grace and mercy, my heart and even my nervous system are overwhelmed in the best way. God, You’ve been behind the scenes the entire time, whispering, “Trust Me, it will be greater later.” Honestly, I can’t believe my life right now. I’m so grateful. If someone had told me five years ago what I would have to go through to get here, I don’t think I would have been able to process it. But now I see it clearly. The process was necessary. Understanding the Process The word  process  has such a deep meaning. In life, in psychology, and in faith, a process isn’t just a series of events. It’s a transformation. In the general sens...

Death is never an easy situation for me to overcome. My mind begins  hyperextending from the myriad emotions of denial, numbness, empathy, confusion, surprisingly gratefulness, and the list continues. This past encounter with the death of my grandfather taught me so much about myself and my family. You never know what you take for granted until it is no longer available to you. I never valued voicemails so much until that was the only opportunity I had to listen to a loved one's voice. I never valued watching someone inhale and exhale until I watched as breath exited my grandfather's lifeless body for the final time. This experience has been bitter sweet. I will miss my grandfather tremendously, but I am aware that he is no longer in pain and is cancer free. On the contrary,  I'm so grateful for my family and the spiritual strength that I have gained through this process. I have never felt God's presence so much in my lifetime. He is truly a comforter and peace in the...