The Battle in My Mind

When you do something with a purpose in mind it usually makes your dedication and motivation meaningful. When there's a reason why you're doing whatever it is that you are doing, there is a sense of self inflicted pressure that increases your desire to be successful. With the different adventures and avenues I explore in my life I am often questioned "how" I do what I do or "how" I find motivation for it. I can summarize my answer in one statement: "all that I am is because of Thee (God), all that I am not is because of me". Because people that know me know the importance of Christianity in my life, I have realized what they are really asking me is "why" do you do what you do? Why is the desire and drive so strong?  Translation: what is the reasoning behind why you're doing what you do... Well, I'm glad you asked. Although I don't necessarily have to provide this disclaimer, allow me to, for the sake of courtesy.  ⚠️DIS...

Have you ever thought about why you were put on this earth? Like what exactly you were supposed to carry out before your time is over on this side? Are your talents and gifts connected to that purpose? Do you have multiple purposes? I cannot tell you exactly what your purpose in life is but I can help you figure it out by asking you what bothers you and doesn't usually phase people around you? No, no , no I am not talking about obnoxious smacking, people sliding their feet on the ground or loud breathing. I mean a serious issue in the world that bothers you and you desire to fix. Your purpose is connected to that. It takes everyone to run this world so it's important that you play your part. You were created with a purpose for a purpose. "As you mature so will it, you just have to find IT"! Sensai #purpose #life #talents #gifts #blog

The battle in my mind.... I want to do wrong but good is always present . You don't understand the conviction and anointing I'm facing. See as bad as I desire certain things and as rewarding as they seem in the moment, I just can't seem to forget about how much I will lose if I am not disciplined. I'm aware that not too many people know what this feels like but let me attempt to paint my words metaphorically so you can get a glimpse of my reality. In psychological terminology, picture your father having reinforcement for listening to his commands and with each correct movement he is anxiously anticipating opening his hands to deliver what's already ordained for you. However refusal to use the correct prompt or pull the correct lever may result in getting shocked and eventually having to start back over.           See I am aware that God is a forgiving God but I am not willing to continue restarting for my conscious decisions. I know I make mistakes but I don't...