Tug of War
The battle in my mind.... I want to do wrong but good is always present . You don't understand the conviction and anointing I'm facing. See as bad as I desire certain things and as rewarding as they seem in the moment, I just can't seem to forget about how much I will lose if I am not disciplined. I'm aware that not too many people know what this feels like but let me attempt to paint my words metaphorically so you can get a glimpse of my reality. In psychological terminology, picture your father having reinforcement for listening to his commands and with each correct movement he is anxiously anticipating opening his hands to deliver what's already ordained for you. However refusal to use the correct prompt or pull the correct lever may result in getting shocked and eventually having to start back over. See I am aware that God is a forgiving God but I am not willing to continue restarting for my conscious decisions. I know I make mistakes but I don't...