The Battle in My Mind

I often discuss my efforts to maximize "my dash" (between my birthdate and death date), however I'd like to delve into something extremely sensitive and often avoided .... When tomorrow starts without me, you may have an abundance of questions but know that God makes no mistakes. Although I pray that I have a lot of life left in me, there are certain details I want to be clear on... When life continues without me please try not to cry... I know I'm going to heaven so rest assured about my salvation . •Don't come to my funeral wearing black . I want all white with yellow, pink, or bright colors of some sort to accent. •I will be cremated so you all aren't constantly remembering me from your visualization in the casket. There's just something about people walking and staring at my lifeless body that makes me uncomfortable. Have several pictures of me on display! Make sure I look cute in all of them ;). • Please be on time to my home going celebration,  ...

Forgiveness Dealing with forgiveness may be one of the most difficult challenges in life one can experience. It seems absolutely illogical to forgive someone who has stabbed you in the back, deceived you, hurt your family member, etc. "Turn the other cheek" you say. Yea it's biblical but not the easiest thing to do. Because I have experienced many encounters of dealing with forgiveness, allow me to speak from my own truth. It's completely human for you to want to seek revenge or wish evil on someone but I have learned revenge is a revolving door, therefore seeking revenge is inflicting self harm in a way. You see, thinking about ways to seek revenge drains a lot of your energy and is completely pointless. We say "but how is it fair for someone to harm me and I am just supposed to let it go". That doesn't make sense. Well let's get this straight. Life is not fair. Things will not always make sense. Guess what favor isn't fair either. But it i...